To the Homestead

"Well we made a couple of key trades, and we got the funk..."....WELL A GLORY B, THE FUNKS ON ME...KEEP THAT FUNK ALIVE, KEEP THAT FUNK ALIVE!!!!!

I don't want to end up someone I don't even know

I'll admit it, this finals week is tiring me out a little bit. I went on a huge binge and saw 4 sunrises (missed one by about an hour) in 7 days. Of course I reap the benefits of doing not quite spectacular on my tests. Alas, that 40 hours for physics didn't quite add up to a smile. Perhaps I can bank on the character that was built while putting myself through torment.
I've got 2 more tests in about 30 hours (differential equations and macro-econ), then I'm a free man. I almost switched to my major to physics and econ (from a purely science field), but we'll see how the grades turn out. I guess I got an A in lab, which is nice. I have none of the prerequisites for the lab I'm taking next semester. It should be a good time.
I gotta go see a prof in 10 hours, then study for like 15. How swell.
On the upside I'm not totally hating my subjects. Maybe a career in science in fact does await? Applied optics? Econophysics? Fluid dynamics?
Oh the places you will go...

"If you don't slow down you never grow old"

After tonight, I will have seen 5 sun rises in the past 7 days. Three of those days have passed without a sighting of the sun.
Full Moon Party was epic. A friend of a friend that attended owns a tanning salon. He wants to sponsor the next fiesta in exchange for us handing out a few free months of tanning. "You guys get a lot of girls here." It was all for the Messiah and we rolled in usual fashion. It was interesting to see many people from different parts of my social life collide for one last evening of freedom. They all want more, so the party up top considers the next occasion.
I could have completed the grand slam, but for reasons unknown took the path of light.
Alas, the future requires utmost attention. In the next 26 hours I have my most important two tests, one of which is in the class that Dody says will be outsourced anyways. In any case, opportunity knocks to shake up that plummeting grade and pad its landing.
Alas, The Doctor makes Pad Thai, duty calls.

Fuck your destiny and throw your pumpkin in the tree

Full Moon Party, as the event of the Messiah's 20th Winter.
The Lodge is tricked out, The Garden remains a room of scholarship.
First 46 people get buckets with a bow and shovel and 6 straws.
Some can run with us, others must look on.
Dig?

Ninety Four on my last midterm. I can't be stopped now!

Grab your things I've come to take you home

Going on hour number 18 at the library this weekend. I barely saw the sun today. Coffee from Starbucks in only acceptable when monetary exchange has not been made. Stick it to the man.

The walls keep out the pain

When the rain hangs just right, where air drag matters, the capitol looks bigger than it actually is. The optical densities of the water droplets and air cause the ominous to creep up a bit more heavenly.
You ask, to what ends does this continue?
But your heart acts for reasons that Reason does not understand.

I love Red

http://www.big-boys.com/articles/topdui.html

If all this gold should steal my soul away..

We had our Senior good-bye GMM this evening. It was good. They always arouse peculiar feelings.
It is 5am. I have a sales call at 3pm. I have a math assignment (unfinished) due at 2:15PM. I will not be attending my mathematics lecture.

cup my eyes and look up at the stars

I want to change the world...

yea, I want to change the world.
People often look at me as if I just said something outlandish when I answer the question of "what do I want to do." I'm not sure if they don't understand or what it is, but few people take me straight when I tell them that. That is not the problem. The problem is how I'm going to do this. I'm not studying developmental econ or international relations or anything like that. I learn about nucleon oscillations and solve systems of equations. Then I draw a graph, which has been a bitch lately. Every morning I struggle to find the link between these two desires. How do I link a life of science with a desire to work with people and make their lives better? Motivation plummets when you see no end in sight. My engineering professor recently showed us a chart of starting salaries broken down by engineering field. He told us that our hard work would pay off. I'm not satisfied. Happiness isn't in a cubicle or a healthy paycheck or the brand of my shoes or size of the ornament on the hood of my car. I lack a vision of where this is all leading.
I'm all for diving into the fray, but I can't even find a fray to dive into...
Like a cage without a key.

She grabs the wind while I'm seeing double

Today was less than fantastic. Not terrible, but things just weren't going the direction of general satisfaction for me. Work was really frustrating, my math assignment was hard and is taking forever again, and to top it off I get back from the library and drunk people have convened here, again.
So I sit here and feel less than fulfilled. Tomorrow is going to be a little rough. I have to finish my physics by 4pm, finish math, prepare for sales call, eat, try to sleep. Our last GMM is at a pasta place. We have a couple seniors leaving.
I'm not liking short hair. I also don't like the clean shaven look, though I'm wondering if that is because it happens so rarely. Long scruff isn't great either. I look like a d-bag.
A piece of celery with some veggie dip should make everyone a winner. I wish I could eat foreign food every day. Pad thai for lunch over and over.

Oh yeah, The Riddler retired.

I got that one test back, just over 50% on it. Dody wins the competition for his outsourcing comment. It gave me the most solace, knowing my undercommitment to academics wouldn't hurt the country's economic well-being. I failed in trying to attend all my remaining classes this semester. Someone give me some direction.

Sunshine Day dream

It's been a long time since I have gotten a paid haircut twice in one year. I haven't shaved in several several days.
I will do both this day, in my pajamas.
Some moons must have aligned.
I have my first sales call in a few days.

The world swings on her hips

My bridge can withstand a load of around 36,000 pounds. I guess you can drive semi's over your small creek if you would like.

Here's the hitch: Your horse is leaving

Tonight I have to design a nine foot footbridge. It must use two trusses spaced three feet apart. It has a dead load of 400 pounds. The trusses must use three foot pieces of steel pipe.
What is the maximum safe live load?
What diameter steel pipe should be used?
Let the games begin..

I dance outside of Karma

I don't think I have good karma. I look through the back pages of my past and, well, I've done some things that didn't help the karma cause. I mean really, I'm surprised I haven't been sandwiched between a semi and a brick wall yet. I think people around me are suprised too.
I've been told that, according to Buddhism, karma is what determins what you are reincarnated as. In addition, men are higher in the karma chain than women. Well, whatever gains my past life made have been completely trashed. Just right out the window.
Thus, it is time for my life to be guided by forces greater than karma. Luck, perhaps. Perhaps it is luck that has been my guiding force all along? Maybe. That could explain why there hasn't been a mixmaster sandwich yet. Maybe it's being dished to me in small pieces. That could explain what happened last night, cause I sure as hell don't know. I only remember about 4 or 5 drinks and then and all that's left is a collage of images and slow motion clips.
So maybe I still have a chance.
If you will allow me to presently declare, this day marks a new beginning. From here on out, its all about Karma. I plan to build up enough that I can give some out in raffles on various foreign holidays. First I've gotta get back up to zero, cause I think right now I'm in the negative. Anybody know some blockbuster ways to kick off the campaign? I need maximum increase per hour.
Karma utility, you are mine.

Liked it ever since the 14th can...

I wake up at 1:30pm, there's sangria all over my pants, a victoria's secret shoe book on my desk, and I realize I had slept most of the night sitting up. All class.

I knew it long before he ever became a Jersey girl

Another friday evening at the lab, analyzing data. Just a few hours. We should have a paper coming out in the "near" future. I wonder if my name will be included.
Holiday Extravaganza this evening, precluded with another formal party.
Full Moon Party set for the 15th day of the 12th month, more details shortly.

Paranoia strikes deep, into your heart it will creep

Standing near the cement structure was a good idea. It's like a bottleneck, you can't walk by him without A) taking a flyer or B) looking like the D-bag who is mad and doesn't want a flyer. We met eyes while I was still 20 yards away and he held a flyer straight out from so I would have to eventually break course or run into it. I'm weak, so I took a flyer, expecting some sort of religious cartoon, or hip-hop jam, or protest I should attend. Christ, annoying.
Nah.
On it was two things; an uncentered picture and some text.
It was a yellow slip of paper and showed a cartoon person in mid-air doing the splits with arms up in some sort of jump of joy.
Above it read "HAVE A NICE DAY."

Indeed.

Ahh, the sweet amber waves of truth

The Bush administration is funding sexual health projects that teach children that HIV can be contracted through sweat and tears, touching genitals can result in pregnancy, and that a 43-day-old foetus is a thinking person...
...The money goes to religious, civic and medical organisations as grants. To qualify they may only talk about types of contraception in terms of their failure rates, not about how to use them, or the possible benefits...
...Other "facts" include that abortion can lead to sterility and suicide, half the gay male teenagers in the US have tested positive for HIV, and condoms fail to prevent transmission of HIV in 31% of incidences of heterosexual intercourse. US government figures contradict all of these assertions... (Article Here)

Where are some men when you need them

Yet contrary to previous research on daily moods, the study found that the women rated TV-watching high on the list, ahead of shopping and talking on the phone, and ranked taking care of children low, below cooking and not far above housework. (NYTIMES)

Somewhere near the end of time, said she was torn and turned around

There's something fulfilling about standing at the chalkboard with the boss and being able to discuss the best way to analyze this data set of 5000 points.

...but it's my turn to drive

Does anybody know a good reference/tutorial book on Matlab? It's destroying me.
I found my chapstick yesterday- in the lab office, I guess all that is lost is not always gone.
I bought a piece of pizza for subtle reasons.

Fined for "Displayment of Power"

Thou shall not drink and drive,
even if it's "just a few."